Here is to finding some inner peace this Christmas

As a child I was very boisterous and happy.

Happy for the most part except when there was an injustice committed against me. Then everybody knew it! I screamed and yelled when I wasn't given the best treatment or given the attention and love that deserved. Immediately, my heart filled with resentment and anger. I'd run to my room or anywhere I can find solace and I'd wail, wail and wail! "No one loves me!, No one understands me! I want to die!" The pain I felt was very real. The gut wrenching, earth shattering pain some just brushed off as a tantrum was for me the very expression of how I felt inside for the most part everyday. I had found an moment in which I thought it appropriate to express it. In my heart lingered feelings of resentment for those who had hurt me, those who weren't there when I needed them, those who were unable to love me like they should.

Anger and pain and resentment fill my heart. So I wail, wail and wail because "No one understands, no one cares! No one! I want to die!"

I recently have come to understand that in a broken world that is how we should always feel. No one understands, no one cares and all we have is to wait to shrivel up and die.  That is all we have.

All my anger and resentment comes from thinking that people should care, people should understand and we should all feel enough love from others that life is still worth living but that is not the state the world is in. It is also not the state the world was created in.

So one night after being rejected by his religious family left to stay with animals and other outcasts a Savior was born. A son who was sent to teach us; how to understand, how to care and how to LIVE.